"I don't believe in hypothetical situations. It's like lying to your brain."
So spoke a literal-minded character on "30 Rock".
Sometimes I catch myself weaving story lines I know to be untrue, tales to make my life seem more fulfilled, more exciting, more...worth living.
Sometimes I even catch myself believing the fabrications more so than the reality.
And sometimes the threads woven to tether me to this world begin to unravel and I find myself unwilling to remain.
I had one of those moments a few weeks ago after "Project Shiphunt". The film left me desperately missing my mother.
I found myself in a restaurant downtown, unable to stop crying, wishing myself anywhere but on this blue-green orb.
The waitstaff let me be and didn't ask questions beyond general needs.
More tea?
Is the food okay?
Can I get you anything else?
And I sobbed and ate a delicious meal and watched the fish and ignored the chatterings of those sitting behind me, ignored others who entered and left as I sat.
And I sobbed, quietly, wiping saltwater stains onto my shirtsleeves.
By the time I was to return to the Ocean Film Festival, my tears were fairly spent. And the next film helped to strengthen my tether once more, at least for the night.
7 comments:
Going through the drafts on my phone, I found an old one that belongs with this post.
"I miss Mama so much. I just watched a film called Project Shiphunt and realized how proud she was of me. I wish I could tell her about it."
I stumbled upon this post today and decided to try to find a copy of "Project Shiphunt" to watch again.
Well, guess what?
It DOES exist on the waves of ether!
https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lk7e40M9yjI
Also, the movie was in a film festival during the first year of pandemic.
I wonder what It may have won?
https://watch.eventive.org/arkhaiosfilmfestival2020/play/5f60be03b5695f007d8bdec6/5f5d102b94dc5d00595ed7d4
And, the documentary was in the Thunder Bay International Film Festival back in 2019!
https://www.visitalpena.com/event-detail/sanctuary-cinema-project-shiphunt/
How wonderful to see this again, a decade after my first time!
I find myself wondering what became of those five high school students.
Did they follow a path into marine science? Interactive video control of explorer robots? Instrument design? Unsolved historical events?
No tears this time, just smiles and happy thoughts.
fb flashback from October 6, 2012:
"After the movie, "Sleepwalk with Me" Faustina Smith and I are heading over to the American Legion in Thunderbolt for some karaoke! So, if any of my adoring fans are interested (LOL!), come on over! the drawback is that since it is not within the city of savannah limits, smoking is allowed, but the drinks are super cheap and the people are nice."
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Kathy Mayin
Let me know what you think of the movie. We were going but opted to go to a blues concert at Trinity United Methodist.
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Sandra Cherise Karlin
kathy, It's a good movie and I recommend it!
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Faustina Smith
Me, too! Excellent film!
fb flashback for October 7, 2012:
"Had fun with my friend, Faustina Smith, last night. Saw a good movie, sang some good karaoke songs, and danced with Roy Wood. And, I tried a new Patsy Cline karaoke song to sing at McDonough's sometime soon...Saturday maybe?"
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Susan Small Daggett
Tina always has a good time! If I had the energy, I'd follow her around just for the fun she has.
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Faustina Smith
Thanks, Susan! Nice to know I leave that impression!
And I do hope Sandra Cherise Karlin posted the pic I took of her belting out some Patsy!
fb flashback from October 12, 2012:
"I just now saw that you donated to my Light the night page! Thank you so much for your donation! It was greatly appreciated!"
[She was one of the nurses I went to Italy with in May 2012.]
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Faustina Smith
You bet! I really enjoyed the walk last night - lovely weather! Hope you did, too!
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Kaitlyn Noel Harper
I did!!!
fb flashback from October 14, 2012:
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2 performances of the lovely SUDDENLY LAST SUMMER by the Collective Face Today at Muse Arts Warehouse! 3pm and 8pm!!! Tickets are available at the door or Call (912) 232-0018 for reservations! Come explore the dark secrets hidden in the garden!"
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Updated October 14, 2025:
"Another incredible set by David Poole at Muse Arts Warehouse. The greenhouse from SUDDENLY LAST SUMMER complete with an array of real plants and a sprinkler system that would come apart every week for other events. Beautiful."
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